March 2

Another year another birthday...

I am determined that this year will be better. Last year, my birthday capped the worst year I've ever imagined. Two days before my birthday last year, I found out that my second twin had passed away (after losing the first one three weeks prior). The day before my birthday last year, I had a D&E because I couldn't stand another day of living with what was left of my pregnancy. Last year on my birthday, I spent the day on the couch recovering.

This year, I'm thinking of it as a new beginning. I'm really hopeful that our adoption will happen this year and I'm hopeful that our lives will no longer be on hold and that we can decide to really live again.

This year my birthday was actually okay. I taught this morning and then I came home and got a FABULOUS present from Dh and DS (a new lens for my camera!) and then we went out to eat with some friends. Then, we came home, had some wine and watched a cheesy movie. It was low key, but what else are birthdays like after the age of 30. Still, it felt more like a beginning. I feel that this year will be better and I feel like I have some hope for the coming year.

So that's that. My year didn't begin Jan 1. It began today. Happy New Year!